Friday, April 24, 2009


So, have you ever reached a crossroads in your life and not known which way to go? I'm there.
When we decided...and I use that phrase very loosely... to move to Arizona, it was because it seemed to be where Heavenly Father wanted us to be. After much prayer, on both my part and that of my branch president, the answer was stated very clearly, time and time again that this was where we were supposed to be. It wasn't the answer I wanted to get...and I tried very hard to find every reason that we would not be able to make the move...but Heavenly Father seemed to be working very hard to make all of those reasons go away. So, here we are. Now what?
The business that I intended to run just faded into nothing. The childcare that I was doing in my home fizzled out and died away...people just can't afford to pay for it anymore or were loosing their jobs. Erica moved to the other side of Phoenix...which may not be that far away, but it seems to be across the world sometimes. Our car stopped working. My son joined the marines, moved to Idaho, and got married. I took a job as a nanny but that job ends at the end of May. Our lease is up in June. Where do I go from here? My husband wants us to go back to Indiana, because we are floundering so much financially, but I, who was so against moving here, love Arizona now, and while I miss all my family and friends back in Indiana and Ohio, I am not sure I want to go back. At least here I am not as far away from Jed and Brit as I would be back there, or from my nieces and nephews.
I know that the cost of living is less there, and the summer is not as hot, but the winters are much colder and darker, and the summer is much more humid.
So, I find myself questioning what to do...where to go....? I have prayed about it, and this time there seems to be no answer whatsoever.
What to do? What to do?

1 comment:

Stephanie said...

Good luck with that. Those decisions are so rough!